I am a nurse practitioner.  I have been in emergency medicine for seventeen years.  I live with my husband and three daughters.  We lead a very busy, very full, very crazy life.  Part of that life is my experience in the ER.  I loved it from the first time I stepped into it.  I have been tired, angry, sad, frustrated, and incredibly happy.  I wanted to document my journey and hopefully give a voice to the people who work in this crazy world.

This process started when I began to feel frustrated with my life.  As I looked back over the years, I thought I had missed my calling to be a medical missionary.  I thought, when I was young, that missions was the end all be all of Christian life.  As I reflected, the Lord showed me very clealry that medicine IS missions.  It is ministry.  We hold the hand of the dying. We care for the sick and lonely.  We tend to the orphan and widow.  This is it.  This is as good as it gets.  If we can only learn to be present in our work and develop an awareness of the importance of what we do.

I tend to read inspirational works and I love history and learning how people made a difference in the world.  I read about Mother Theresa, Martin Luther King Jr., Ghandi, Thomas Jefferson, etc. I realized that these were normal people who believed in something and ordered their life to accomplish their vision.  Their every day was probably very average.  It is the sum, not the parts, that made their lives exceptional.  We too can change the world.  If we have a vision for something and just stay the course, the world around us will start to change. 

In the end, everything I know to be true, without question, is what I have learned from the life of Jesus.  He is the one who lived a life that truly changed our world.  He shows us a new way.  This is a way where we find fulfillment when we stop looking out for ourselves and turn our attention to others.  His way teaches us that giving away our lives shows us how to find it.  He was funny, He was passionate, He was smart.  I still can't get my head around some of the things He said.  But I know it's true.  It's the only thing I know to be completely true.  Whatever He did is what I am trying to do in my work, family, and community. 

"The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because He anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor.  He has sent me to proclaim release to the captives, and recovery of sight to the blind, to set free those who are oppressed, to proclaim the favorable year of the Lord." Luke 4:18-19